back again....

So its been a while since i posted on here, things have been somewhat rather intense lately.

For starters i just completed 60 days of intense meditation, meaning some 3-4 hours a day. I got something out of it, a massive sense of presence but im not sure if it was worth the pain. The entire point of this 60 day meditaion marathon was to find your purpose. Problem is, if you've studied your fair share or buddishm, you'd understand that there really is no purpose. So here I am again, staring down the gaunlet of the future, and not knowing what it holds. Part of me is scared, part of me is excited at the blank page I have in front of me.

David Deida says that men go through phases of life. They will have a period of intense meaning, in which they have a goal and they relentlessly pursue it. Then they will have an entire period of nothingness, in which they have no clue were to go next. He says you should just sit in the nothingness and wait for a new vision to emerge. That's pretty much were i think I am now.

Im planning a colossal trip around Europe, leaving in the next couple weeks. I think my mind just needs some space from Sydney. I think everyones mind needs the occasional space from wherever they live.

Anyways, for now to bed I go. Lets hope I can commit myself more to this dream.

Ciao